I have seen visual reminders of the past more frequently in the last week or two. I believe this is a result of the karma incident - a new address, new traffic patterns, etc. What is curious is the times of the reminders - times that those reminders shouldn't happen if the old work schedule is still in place. Whatever the reasons, I remain so very VERY thankful that I have stayed free of my old thought patterns. The reminders mean nothing to me. They sometimes result in casual curiosity - isn't this a work night? - but beyond that, I just don't care. 


Tonight is Halloween. For the first time in 19-20 years, I am home alone and have no children around in any way. I have decorated the apartment with a few things as I intend to celebrate the holidays I love. But when it came time to dress for work, I completely forgot about my Halloween earrings, and wearing black or orange or even fall colors. I never enjoyed being out with the kids, especially in Maine where it tends to be cold. I did enjoy handing out candy. Though the numbers of kids at the house dwindled significantly in the recent years. I'm glad my granddaughters were out with their parents. And that I am home in my warm apartment.


I am looking forward to Thanksgiving; some of the kids should be here. Christmas could still be tricky, but I will manage. I plan to enjoy the rest of this year and to get ready to blossom in 2012. 20 and 12 are two of my favorite numbers.