There was a moment this week when I felt all the internal stress of the old completely break apart, leaving me feeling so much lighter inside and more carefree than I have been in a very long time. What a relief to lose all that stress. It was a combination of anger, hurt, disappointment, embarrassment, self doubt, and other emotions; and it weighed on me more than I realized until it was gone. 

This all occurred following a comment someone made to me about karma related to the crash. I made an assumption about what that meant, thought things through, and then turned it into a presumption. I don't care what the end result of that karma and that situation is any longer. I realize that I made mistakes and overlooked things I wish I hadn't, but it was not about me after all. I knew that with my head but not with my heart. Now I know it with my heart, too.

So the work continues as I shore up the places of self doubt with self worth. I have learned so much this year and have grown so strong. I have promised myself I will never again give away my strength. I worked too hard to gain it back and if someone is asking me to let it go, that person will be let go instead.

And I am no longer looking back at all. I am holding my head high and moving forward, still learning and researching, building a new structure through a new life and lifestyle. I like this new start!