I continue to work on letting go. It will take time and effort to change habits of thought and feeling that have been in place for decades. But I am so much calmer than I would be had I not realized the family issue is not my issue. And I continue to stop myself when I try to retreat into old thoughts, what-ifs, and feelings of dread and despair. When I find myself doing that, I remind myself I AM FREE of all of that. My life is so much better than it was before. I look back to a year ago and all the emotional pain I was in and I am thankful to have worked through that and come out the other side. When the old dread and/or despair hit, I remind myself that is not a feeling pertinent to my current life. I force myself to let go of the weight and float with the freedom. 


Life still brings ups and downs, twists and turns. I'm just not going to enhance the ride any more. This is a great way to end 2011 and to start a new and better year in 2012.