My brain is trying to hold onto ideas and memories that should be set free. My heart seems more comfortable in pieces than intact. I've had enough of this cycle and am now going to change things. No more letting fear rule and  control me. No more feeling sorry for myself. 


One of my greatest strengths is also a great weakness. I adapt well to change. I don't always like change, but I "suck it up" and adapt to it. So I've walked away from all the tough times in the past 10 years and have grown stronger. But if I hadn't adapted well to the crappy conditions I allowed for myself, I never would have had those tough times. 


Getting angry at others for being who and what they are is not helpful. Getting angry with myself for not seeing the truth long before it finally hit me is not helpful. Both of those just cloud the issue and keep me from seeing the way out of those damn labyrinths. And I kept going in circles. Circles are for race car drivers. I'm all done with that.