This is my anthem. For now. And probably for the coming weeks and at least a few months. A little stronger every day. A little smarter, wiser... oh wait, that is the next anthem - the one after this.
But I am getting stronger. I don't want to puke all the time. I don't want to cry all the time. I see the truth more clearly than the fairy tale I lived in. I don't hate. I'm sad. I probably always will be sad about this. The roller coaster I am burning was a good one in some places. It needed work on its foundation. Unfortunately, the work was never started and it collapsed with me on it. The work was not mine to do. The inspection was. But I won't regret the ride, the time, the love I shared. And I won't beat myself up for not looking closely enough, not seeing the cracks in the supports.
I'll never ride again without a complete and detailed inspection. A little bit stronger. Then smarter, wiser... a fighter.
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