I have decided I don't want to be on a roller coaster. I am still recovering from the crash of the last one. I don't want to ever do that again. I just don't know where to go from here. I will move forward, I will not live in the rubble or the memories, that is for certain. I don't have any destination in mind other than as far away from the upheaval as I can get. I don't even know what I want after this. I keep forgetting how much time it takes to heal. The scrapes don't show any longer, but those deep bruises show up later and take much longer to go away.