The cycling continues... I dreamed about my old life this morning before I woke but added a new twist at the end. The ugly feelings from the old life stayed with me until someone pointed out it was probably my mind dealing with things. And when I revisited the twist, I realized it represented progress. 

I am hoping this weekend and the events that are scheduled put the final touches to burning down the old life. I really want to walk far, far away and not look back ever again. There are lessons I learned but I don't need to look back to see them. What I need to do is redefine the meaning of certain words and concepts: living a full life, learning to dream again, who am I, etc.

I gave up dreaming a long time ago. I'm not sure why. I am guessing I figured I would be practical. But without dreams, where did I think I would go? No dreams, no real goals, just getting by... That is not the way I want to live. 

I have a lot of work to do...